Today’s post contains the third and final segment of the second Song, “Dis-membered,” so that makes two Songs completed. Upcoming posts will offer the third Song, and so on, through Song 23. In this segment, we remain in the younger years of our “hero,” so articulation is at that level, not as an adult would speak. However, because this is a poetic work, I’ve attempted to put into words what can only be felt. I hope I’ve succeeded to some degree.
I feel letters and words trickling through my
veins, close as blood, hard as stones, raising me
voiceless, welcoming and restful, listening to
these new sounds sliding inside a still pool
I sit straight trying hard to understand
ants swarming on a rough-white page, not a
stripe out of place, not a pointless stroke made
The swirls and tracks too quiet make me want
to shout, “Go away! Let me out!” I bear
emptiness, exhaustion, left far behind
Sitting up straight when I want to run
No one knows the sonorous rhymes tickling
my mind – they recite – I listen inside
Someone I know tells me to go away
I’m sad. I’m tired. But I don’t want to sleep
Maybe I’ll walk out and stay with that tree
sitting slight under leaves maybe I’ll see
enough to help me forget where I’m now
but I’m beginning to think there’s no way
out so I’ll turn small and round out of the way
on river bottom, grand seed that I was
I walk alone and listen to stories
very good stories that I tell myself
about a charming someone who’s coming soon
All I must do is wait, watch, and be here
when over that hill the one will appear
This lovely story a certain secret
I never told -never - not even once
because then all of it would disappear
Alone again, staring in that mirror
When the one I wait for finally comes
We’ll wear black with gold threads, ride fast horses
Long hair, manes, and tails streaming behind
We won’t have to speak. We’ll know in our minds
the love we’ll hide in a ruby red case
I must not stop watching, but I now decide
I’ll take the dream, put it in a silver
bowl and make a fire with black clouds of smoke
so the one who’s coming can find the way
For now, I walk listening to the story
the sun is going down - I can barely
see the hill and no one is riding fast
toward me, the one who is waiting, only
black tree limbs painted on the darkening sky
and me, telling the story, asking why
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Dipping a tender toe into the stars
one delicate, pale naked toe plunges
with no fear, breaking the surface tension
sliding into the shimmering blue pool
Standing on one leg, naked in the chill
I feel the edge of the stone under foot
Far out on the white moon-water, a mass
surges below the surface seeing warm
toe bravely breaking the water’s tightness
The vibration of the leviathan
Submerged toe in darkness, naked, waiting
Ripples glide out shattering the ashen moon
The largest wave heaves toward the moonlit shore
It is coming for me huge with purpose
I plunge the foot - a beacon for this One
I hear a bellow resounding toward me
I inhale the mist driven before it
I feel the light before I hear the sound
I hold steady, resolved, breathing
Waiting
Background
One place to start this part of the discussion is with the title of this Song: “Dis-membered.” Why the hyphen, you may ask. Compare the first and second Songs, and determine the approximate human age that they cover. A very young child cannot tell the difference between itself and the rest of the world, including other people. As the child matures, people and things start to separate into “me” and “other.” Thus, the hyphen, the separation. Something is taken away (i.e., “dis-“), and the sense of self becomes part of the other “members” in the child’s circle. On the other hand, the usual meaning of “dismembered” is to take apart, especially related to the limbs of a living being. This image equates to the harsh reality that comes upon the very young person: I am not the center of the world. In this journey, the person in question may well be more in touch than usual with the universe, the “all,” the cosmos. Here lies a hint to the italicized passages.
Exploration 1: What events/experiences remain with you from childhood? Can you articulate one or more? Are they more or less complete, or are they jumbled bits and pieces? Is it worth trying to capture this time of life? Why or why not?
Exploration 2: Have you noticed the italicized lines? They are both purposeful and meaningful. Can you explain why they are used? Take a stab, and I’ll answer you, giving you feedback.
Exploration 3: Here we have the first explicit reference to “the one.” In a young person’s mind, who or what do you think “the one” is that the main character is waiting for?
Exploration 4: What is happening in the final italicized section at the end? Who or what is approaching the central character?
NEXT: “Song Three: Iciclestars”
I am enjoying this epic poem. And I am waiting in anticipation to learn more about "the one". I must admit I am stymied. But I don't want help. I want to continue reading to learn more as I get to know the "hero" of the story.
ReplyDeleteDear Anonymous: I'm so pleased that you are enjoying the poem. Just wait until we get to Song 4 where the story really takes off and matures. You are wise not wanting help regarding "the one." As I wrote the epic, I decided not to make many things too obvious. Glad you are up for the journey and not so much the destination! JP Savage
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